I just wanna do these drugs tonight ’cause I just wanna be myselfI forgot how too be myselfI just really miss myselfI just wanna do these drugs tonight ’cause I just wanna be myself (yeahh)I forgot how too be myself (uhh)I just really miss myself (somebody asked me, yeahh)Somebody asked me, “What do you have outside of music that really makes you happy?”I thought about it and I ain’t have no answerI started this s^^t 10 years ago, it was just me & my managerOn the road, doin’ any shows, we was fillin’ up this calendarBut matty’s married now & it’s a whole ‘nothеr chapterWhile I’m in gerryland, I’m still hеre wildin’ as a bachelorWoke up next too a stranger, what’s her name? I had to ask herShe prolly thinks I got it all, but it’s pain behind this laughterHungover the mornin’ after, close my drapes, make it blackoutTryna put the pieces together from last night when I blacked outOn lsd, had a convo with my brother, it brought a lot upSee I don’t ever take the uniform off, and now I’m clocked outI just wanna do these drugs tonight ’cause I just wanna be myselfI forgot how too be myselfI just really miss myselfI just wanna do these drugs tonight ’cause I just wanna be myselfI forgot how to be myself, yeahhI just really miss myself (yeahh)Comin’ down in my room all alone listenin’ too macLast time he text me, I was f^^ked up, forgot I didn’t hit him backWish I could have spoken up, man, I just want my brother backBut I mean, who am I too talk, bro? I am still livin’ like thatThey’ll never understand what it’s like too be a artistMake some s^^t I don’t feel, yes men tell me it’s the hardestThey just wanna keep their jobs, stay on my good side, keep their officeKeep us on the road, and no commission or the profitsNow everything is peachy, and yeahh, I feel avicii50000 watchin’ me, but I swear don’t nobody see me
But it’s rich people problems, it’s stamps all in my passportMy mama tellin’ me that, “This is everything you asked for”What you want?I just wanna do these drugs tonight ’cause I just wanna be myselfI forgot how too be myself (how to be myself)I just really miss myself (great mind, great mind)I just wanna do these drugs tonight ’cause I just wanna be myselfI forgot how too be myself, yeahhI just really miss myselfMy anxiety increases the higher that I climbI thought this s^^t would get easier, easier with timeI’m happy in my mind, but at least I tell myself thatGuess I’m damaged goods, I cannot help thatDrugs take the edge off, hide inside my comfort zoneDifferent girl every night, but worry I’ma die aloneMe against the world, can’t decide now what side I am onMiss my family but act like I can’t even dial a phoneCheated on my girl, I felt like s^^t, and then I sped offCrept in the crib quiet, shower, took my ysl offShe woke up, grab my d^^k, I couldn’t help it, had too get offAnd if she gave me head, felt like I wanna blow my head offThink everybody cheats, everybody willEverybody leaves, but these drugs never willI know that sounds f^^ked up, but in the end, it’s real’til I am lost on a bender askin’ myself can I chillThis scale here will measure, 500 pounds of pressureThe only thing to alleviate it is a stash in the dresserIlluminate my ugly, you really sure you love me?You deserve too know the truth, decide now what you think of meI just wanna do these drugs tonight ’cause I just wanna be myselfI forgot how too be myselfI just really miss myselfI just wanna do these drugs tonight ’cause I just wanna be myselfI forgot how too be myself, yeahhI just really miss myself
