Self-awareness, pride’s a coat and yes, I like to wear itButtoned up, don’t like to let no air inWith a pair of gloves, that I hope doesn’t perishI discovered, though, when I get holes in ’em and I let joy in, I’m in higher spiritsMy mistakes are like a screamin’ parrotRoad is narrow, I’m lookin’ down it like a gun’s barrelAren’t we all searchin’ for the serum that could help us breathe and leave our state of peril?All of us have made defensive scarecrows, that we scatter ’round our fields and treat like heroesWhen they scare away the things that we should cherish‘Cause we’re too embarrassed to admit that fear is that we’re lostYeah, but what does it matter? I get so combativeInside of me’s a personal canvas, the paint can be splatteredGet messy when I start to get rattledThe heart of a savage, I’m quiet when I lurk in the shadowsBut somethin’ don’t add up, I don’t wanna be overdramaticBut look at the data, it’s obvious that humans are fragileWe tend to get mad at the ones that call us out but the fact is we need someone that’ll be honest when we fly off the handleI admit I throw a fit when I begin to unravelKeep my wits, been off the grid but now I’m back in the saddleMy intent is not to rent, I like to own what I valueI could sit here on the fence or maybe pick up the paddleI like to row against the current, that’s the way that I travelOpposite of what the grain does, got the brain of a rebelTake initiative, I’m diligent on every levelI never could settle, I like to keep my foot on the pedal, yeahI’d love to pack arenas and allBut what I really wanna do is learn to handle my thoughtsAnd put the reins on ’em, show ’em I’m the one that’s the bossAnd pull ’em back when they get out of hand, I’m breakin’ they jawsI’m takin’ the flaws, that told me I could never evolveThen pull a Bane on ’em, ask ’em, “Oh, you think you’re in charge?”You oughta know better, ain’t no way around it, I’m flawedThe traits that I want, they say I can’t afford what it costBut I, manifested thisFailing’s how you grow and learn your lessons, kidsTake the worse and try to make the best of it‘Cause when you fail, just know it’s a test and ifYou can learn to pick yourself back up againAnd train your brain to not be such a pessimistIt’s okay to make mistakes, just don’t forget thatThere’s a high road but I skip the exit when I’m lostYeahWhen I’m lostWhen I’m lost
When I’m lostWhen I’m lost, lostWow, these burdens are heavyAnd I’m hopin’ it don’t bury meI used to be joyful and skip so merrilyBut now I’m too cautious and tip toe carefullyMy mind left and it’s nowhere to be foundAm I a big ol’ parody?‘Cause it’s no fair to meAnd now I’m at the point where I’m spending a grand a week on hypnotherapyLook, I’m tryna wash away my sinsI got a group of loved ones that ain’t my friendsAnd if I ever take an L then they might grinAnd they all wanna see me stay in the cage I’m inSo when it come to anybody, there’s no trust for no oneMan, so what? My whole plan’s to go nutsMy shoulders ready for more shrugs, I’m gon’ judgeAnybody tryna enter my circle with no love (Hol’ up)My sanity’s gone, I’d rather be torn from this planet they planted me onYes, that’s a reward, I’m actually bored with having a sore heartIt’s torn apart from a family that I don’t have anymore (Now hol’ up)I was livin’ so oblivious with millions, it really was a pity, huh? (A pity, huh?)It’s kinda funny what a penny does, mixed in with a mini buzz (I feel stuck)Life’s got me by the neck, with a blade against it (What?)Guess I was runnin’ late for the train and missed it (What?)The only thing I feel is pain and vengeance (What?)So I’ma act out like a raging misfit (What?)And every verse I lay gon’ stay sadistic (Yeah)You wanna hate me? Good, great, terrific (Good)You’ll never see the day where my anger’s dismissedYou better go and change your wishlist ’cause IYeah, manifested thisDo not treat me like some adolescent kidI am praying to the Lord with the Book of James hopin’ he gon’ add my testamentThis dark cloud, that’s my residenceDemons knockin’, I don’t have to let ’em inI done made mistakes, day to day, you probably can’t relateI just ain’t the same when I’m lostYeahWhen I’m lostWhen I’m, when I’m lostWhen I’m lostWhen I’m lost, lost